Yes you are superbly self-aware, which is what makes me suspicious about that dx. I had a professor who told us that if you worry that you have a personality disorder, chances are you don’t!

BTW — BPD is pretty much the only personality d/0 that is highly treatable. So, stands to reason you could see a massive reduction in associated symptoms. The key is self awareness. The key is ALWAYS self-awareness…

Keep up your research and your writing, but be mindful of confirmation bias. A real danger when it comes to researching our own mental health issues.